Alienation

By: Sorin Cerin

The fear is part of the evil from us.

It is also as if a guard of our own life and it try to pass through and to be always the first towards its rival, the death.

Much strange, it would seem the hope is the spear of the positive part of nature before death and the fear and the regret of negative part of our own nature.

We can lose exactly the hope through the suicide and in the moment of the Big Passing, letting the death fear and regret of the lost life have place.

This is part of the life illusion construction, belonging to human psychic.

Although we should not have fear about death, we have. Nevertheless, just a crazy man could say that he will be indifferent if he dies tomorrow or not, because the life can be hardly defeated.

If we have not had fear about death, we would self-kill from the biological beginning of the nature.

The death itself is a trick of life to can keep us shackled in the lie of our own existence.

Why we are not admitting that one of the main factors, which maintain life, is fear about death and the regret of life lost? The life owns through the negative part of nature.

Much we would try to hide about ourselves, the life owned through the negative from us that can be not defeated just with the hope of the positive.

Much paradoxical it would seam, the life owned through our evil and the death through our good too.

This is the Grand Paradox of our existence.

We are born with good soul to die bad.

There is not human been without to mistake just ones in his life, during this illusion, which turns us always in our unlike, just to create. And when we are before the Big Passing, we try to find the pureness chip from us and than we hear that we have lost it from a long time on lottery of own destiny.

Why all of these are happening just when the life is not as able to do something?

Everything consists in hope!

People that are suicide loose exactly this hope!

This is the hope of a new life, of a new beginning even in this world so possible but especially impossible.

In the moment of the suicide, the wish of death acceptance crosses the hope in a new life.

For this reason, the majority of the people who succeeded to die have same cramped faces and they that consider the death as an illusory experience in the life game, seem calm and reconciled, because they could die with the hope of a new life.

They are living the death and dying the life.

To can live the death and to be calm even if you are killing your self, you will need first to lose the hope because you have suicide to leave the life and if you have done it, it was certainly for a new life, for more hope, fulfillment and not end of all the finding oneself again.

You shall consider the suicide as a game of chance, of hazard that characterizes us exactly the life. You shall also send off the fear of death and the regret that advent of a world that you want to leave, indifferent if it is eventually.

I heard in many times that, the self-murderers could be weak people that go to this gesture by cowardice.

However, I think that is totally on the other hand.

They are through the most powerful our fellows.

They are persons that fight with the lie of the big illusion of own life, until the last moment, fighting also with their self.

I know they are passing through hard moments, but I still want leaving “live” such experience to know what is after.

Really, there is this “after”?

If it had not existed, it means that either this life would have no sense because everything would be without any logic.

The only true logic of the fact that we are under the sun, is that after this experience more or less agreeable will pass “after”.

Truly, the life without death would have no sense. I am not referring just to total death but to the one that we will leave becoming other world.

I cannot understand exactly why, but, if the man could find himself again, he would be not able just renouncing at own life.

I feel like a scientist that is studying a phenomena and he is able for the supreme sacrifice just that one day he will obtain so and so formula, which can certify a discover.

Maybe I want suicide to understand better my own life, to meet the stranger from me whom address I do not remember and beside who I would pass on the street without stopping and unknowing that same day I will be through the strangers passing beside me too.

What would be the alternative to find you again?

You can appeal to manner all of physiologists that will learn you how to subsistence in letter and spirit of your own life with lost address from the born, full of fear, absurd, the parvenus restless from your round. They are sure like the physiologists they have a certain address in their identity papers of life, without understanding in their own foolishness actually. They leave just the Illusion of Life give it by the five witless senses, as printing for everybody.

When I am talking about the big culture, I am itching to hang.

Many books, where same people not just that they have nothing to say but also they think they are holders of an exciting adventure of existence.

However, what denote all of these?

When we will know of the entire absolute true from our illusory life?

We will know all of these when the majority of the authors are quartered in a writer’s lots, true packs where they can praise they self-making genius glories.

They are as packs crowded with such dramatic editors for this scaffolding of the lie to be complete.

In other domains is the same.

What else can be the culture than an ideation suicide masses?

I believe also in existence of monumental works, but they are few.

Is really the science a kind of suicide?

Is it alienation?

Are we really happier with the technological boom?

We have more because we want and we wanted to have even not in unanimity and if we know that the day has come when our wish does not matter anyway and consequently we will have forced more technology but also more desperation.